Oh my here I go sounding like a crazy lady! But I am suppose to be a Christian I cannot be a Psychic! WHUUUUUUUT!!!! See that’s not even what I said! LOL! I said I have a 6th sense. I can see beyond the 5th, beyond taste, touch, sight, hearing, and smell, and at times it drives me crazy! I just want those closest to me to be able to see what I see. Its like that song, do you see what I see? NO they don’t!!! LOL
Ephesians 6:11 Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
Basically, everything that happens in this world isn’t about the physical. Yes we may see it that way. It may manifest itself in physical form, but it is not physical, it has a spiritual root per se. That can be good or bad. I skipped a day of prayer, first it was by accident, or by spiritual battle, I got up and got on Facebook and started looking at videos, and next thing you know I am on snap chat, and then I am up looking at TV. I have yet, to listen to the word, or read it on my own, and I have yet to pray for my husband, kids, or my close friends that I have been praying for daily. I also say a prayer for my closest enemies as well. I haven’t said a prayer for any of them. And amazingly, as I didn’t pray for any of them, My husband had an amazing day with me yesterday, better than he did all week long. Matter of fact, it was the best day we have had all week long. And I just so happen to skip a day praying for him. How convenient. The devil, probably didn’t feel threatened by this as, what reason would he have to, as I am not asking the Lord for any help for my husband to put him first, no struggles there, I am not asking the Lord for him to love me like Christ loved the church, and I am not asking him to get back into discipleship. I am also not asking to stay focused on the Lord and I sure didn’t do it myself yesterday until I went to bed, it was the very last thing I did before bed, and I made sure I thanked God for the peaceful day we had. For the first day we had with no strife, for the day we had together with laughter and we did talk about him before bed together. But I did stay mindful to respect him and show reverence to him, and everything I had been praying for, as myself towards him. In turn as the devil stayed back, I thanked God for that, so maybe I got to put one over on him (the devil) for once lol, maybe not.. but what I do know is that I did not put God first yesterday.
And today when I did, and after thanking God for all of that yesterday I know, he was mad… Because today, it started right back up again… lol.. Man oh man. I knew it was going to happen. But could my blind husband see it even when I pointed it out to him? No. That’s why I say I have a 6th sense. I keep telling him, stop getting so mad, Lucifer is just mad that you are about to be something so great but you have to let go of whatever sin you are holding on to babe, and he gets mad at me lol and I don’t even get mad… I just pretend I don’t know more than half the time. I’m sure there is more than what I know, and maybe it is all that I know. (for those of you just joining me, you have to read in the past to know whats going on) God has shown me this AMAZING man in God he will become. But he won’t let go. He doesn’t know how to let go of his past. And then he will get mad easily and hold grudges, and he does not easily forgive. I would say I need to add that to my list of prayer for him, but once he puts God first, and loves him, all else will fall into place.
I used to have this whole list of things to pray for. But then it changed. It made so much sense why Jesus said in Mark 12:30 And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength: this is the first commandment.31 And the second is like, namely this, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. There is none other commandment greater than these.
If you love God, to love someone has actions, and is selfless, you put their wants and needs before your own. Same for loving your neighbor. So all I really pray now is that he loves God and loves me like Christ loved the Church so much he gave himself for it. The more I pray, the more I see Satan move in. That’s how I know its working. In the past I have gotten tired of the attitudes and for some reason I have stopped praying and, I mean he has still gone to church and everything, and I took that as a sign of God answering prayer or something??? NO!!!! It was like lukewarm water this whole time. Its like I can drink hot coffee, and I can drink it almost hot, and I can drink it cold, but lukewarm is disgusting!!! YUCK!!! No thank you!
THANK GOD he has allowed me to tolerate his mood swings LOL because I do not care about them at all, they don’t even phase me! It almost makes me happy that I can see this light bearer attacking, it means this prayer is working, because if this outcome wasn’t going to be what God has shown me is possible, then this attack would have no need to take place at all. But once again. I just WISH he could see it. Once he starts to open his eyes though, that’s when I know he is growing in the Lord, but his sin is blinding him. He has to want to grow in the Lord himself. I do not know what it is going to take for it to happen. Whatever it is, I need to be prepared because it may be something heavy, and he cannot handle heavy. He doesn’t know how to. So I pray it isn’t that, but it is something that shakes him enough, JUST enough. The enemy knows him, and the enemy knows me. He is working from all angles, and it is not easy, but I see the attacks, and we need to put on the WHOLE armor of God. I am praying that neither of us leave a piece at home. but for some reason I keep finding chinks in this flawless armor, as if the enemy switched it, and maybe my husband can’t tell the difference between counterfeit and the real thing, so I am praying he listens to the help… meet. Amen.