It’s really hard to write, when you feel like your best friend could be reading your every word. So I stopped for a while. God is telling me, “write, write, write.” So, here I am, back on it. I have to listen to him, because even though I may be writing with my spoken word, I am not fully obeying him, and partial obedience is still disobedience to God. Partial obedience killed King Saul. In 1 Sam chapter 15, I see three things:
1. God gives a command for Saul to follow in verses 2 and 3. 2 Thus saith the Lord of hosts, I remember that which Amalek did to Israel, how he laid wait for him in the way, when he came up from Egypt. 3 Now go and smite Amalek, and utterly destroy all that they have, and spare them not; but slay both man and woman, infant and suckling, ox and sheep, camel and ass. Leave NONE alive, not even an animal. What is great about this is that, it seems pretty cut and dry to me. It seems harsh, but its very clear. But what does he do?? In Verse 8-9 he leaves Agag, their king, alive, along with the best of their animals that God said to kill. There is pure disobedience here. He MOSTLY obeyed God, but not fully. You cannot do what you want to, and think God will be okay with that.
2. Verse 20 Shows how he really believes that partial obedience is actual obedience.20 And Saul said unto Samuel, Yea, I have obeyed the voice of the Lord, and have gone the way which the Lord sent me, and have brought Agag the king of Amalek, and have utterly destroyed the Amalekites.
The funny thing here is, I am sure that a lot of people really believe they are in actual obedience to God, while only living in partial, and therefore being disobedient to him.
This really makes me think of my husband. He will say stuff when he is going through his mood swings, like, I want a divorce, and I will respond, “so you don’t want to work on your relationship with God?” He will say, “I will work on it, just without you being a part of it.” What??? 1 Peter 3:7-13 There is NOTHING biblical about what you just said, but okay… at that point I just keep my mouth shut because,well, what more can I say? If he wants to leave I cannot stop him, 1 Corinthians 7:13-15, But I can pray for him. If he wants to work on his relationship with God, he thinks he is doing right by God, but how when we are suppose to be one flesh? It is only partial obedience. It hurts, but what can I do? I would have to follow in FULL obedience if I am to be right by God. 1 Peter 3:1-13 really has a lot that applies to me as well, and the first verse is so crucial, Likewise, ye wives, be in subjection to your own husbands; that, if any obey not the word, they also may without the word be won by the conversation of the wives; I have to obey for the parts that they don’t, that he can be won, by my actions alone. That can be one of the hardest things to do. Reading down to verse 22, it shows that obeying is better than worshiping. 22 And Samuel said, Hath the Lord as great delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices, as in obeying the voice of the Lord? Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice, and to hearken than the fat of rams. 23 For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, and stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry. Because thou hast rejected the word of the Lord, he hath also rejected thee from being king. So now that brings us to the final point that I see, and that is death.
3.Death was the cause of his disobedience, and not just for him, but for him and his sons. 1 Chronicles 10:13-14 13 So Saul died for his transgression which he committed against the Lord, even against the word of the Lord, which he kept not, and also for asking counsel of one that had a familiar spirit, to enquire of it;14 And enquired not of the Lord: therefore he slew him, and turned the kingdom unto David the son of Jesse. You can read all about it in 1 Chronicles 10. He also went to necromancer and not God, and God killed him for these things. This just makes me think of Isaiah 59:1-2 59 1 Behold, the Lord‘s hand is not shortened, that it cannot save; neither his ear heavy, that it cannot hear: 2 But your iniquities have separated between you and your God, and your sins have hid his face from you, that he will not hear.
All of this causes one form of death, separation from God. At the end of the day, why would you want that? Why would you want for God to not hear you, and cut you off, because you do not chose to obey him? It is never too late to follow him. It is never too late until your physical death. As I read chapter 15 of 1 Sam, I saw that the whole time he left Agag alive and said he utterly destroyed the Amalekites, while leaving a trophy alive. It was almost as if, the king was his trophy. In 1 Samuel 15:24-26, he admits to knowing he sinned, but he doesn’t fix the sin, he doesn’t repent from it, or turn away from, he doesn’t kill the last of the Amalekites, and he still tries to worship God. It has already been said that obedience is better than worship. Samuel basically tells him he rejected God, and he rejected the blessing that God had made him king over Israel. That was so deep, I mean, how can you reject a blessing from God? When you do not follow him, you can not lead his people. You can not do what he asks. He had many chances to do it, until Samuel did it for him, he was the one to finish off the Amalekites, to follow through with Gods word to someone else in the end.
This just puts into perspective how important obedience is to God, and how I have only be partially following him myself as of lately. I just pray I can be in full obedience to him.