Content in my Singleness

Is there such a thing; To be content with being alone, to be content with being enough for yourself, and do not feel the need to have anyone else? There is! One day, I want something beautiful again, I want something right. I do want to be married again, I want to be a wife, I want to have someone, whom I can comfort, and be there for, and hopefully, they can be there for me as well! (That’s always the plan, right? LOL) I am stubborn and hardheaded and it took me a lot to be at peace and HAPPY with where I am. Continue reading

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Praying Without Ceasing

1 Thessalonians 5:17-22 is the picture I have chosen from my bible. For this whole place that I am at in my life right now, I am praying without ceasing, for my children, I am praying without ceasing, and for this person I happen to love, I am praying without ceasing. I am learning about giving thanks for all of it. The kids are an easy thing to give thanks for, they are awesome! The other 2, as long as I remember that we rejoice in tribulation, it is easy. Continue reading

The Spirit of Fear

Outside of always having stage fright as far back as I can remember, this is the stage in my life where I allowed the foothold for the devil to creep in.  I got married and pregnant all about the same time in my life, and as that happened, my husband at the time, was not so excited for it.  We made the choice to get pregnant together, but honestly, I didn’t believe it would really be possible, and he knew that as well.  I had a high-risk pregnancy with my first daughter, 2 miscarriages, and a doctor tell me that being able to carry a child to full term, just wouldn’t be in the cards for me.  Having my beautiful baby girl, now 2 years later, you can see just how wrong he was.  I married a ladies man.  Which was hard to believe, because he is the nerdy type, always gaming, but he did ride motorcycles. Continue reading

Power of Prayer…

Prayer is extremely important in your relationship with Jesus. 1 John 5:14-15 Tells us that whatever we pray for in God’s will, he will hear us, and if he hears us, then he will answer. I have been praying for my husband to be better for our daughter. He is. He is still the same he was for me. However, cannot stand being the bad guy, and in general he isn’t. I mean he isn’t so mean, he has been mean and said mean things, but he’s not in general. We can co-parent just fine, we get along great, and his daughter adores the mess outta him. He just wants there to either be no bad guy, or 2 bad guys. He cannot be to blame for this, he cannot be the one to blame that his daughter has to have 2 households. That is really a shame. Not even that she ever really has to know the reason. Continue reading

Ephesians 6:12 Spiritual Warfare

The things I am going through right now. I finally get over my husband, and he talks to me about working it out. Who does that? I had to accept that he had just moved on, didn’t want me any more, and was better off without me. No lie I prayed that he wasnt having a great time without me, one of those, reap what you sow, kind of situations. While I was still wishing the best for him and praying for his heart for our daughter. For 2 years I have felt like the Israelites in Judges 10:8. Vexed an opressed, shattered and crushed. Not just broken, but shattered into thousands of pieces. My entire marriage was like this. While he was out doing him, I was at home with the children as depression sets in, trying to take care of home, going to work, making things happen for them, not being a team, and not taking care of me. I waiver liie the waves in the ocean in my relationship with Christ. And this morning, it hit me, Ephesians 6:12 For we wrestle not against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. I know this already, I have written about it, I have tried to make him see it, but I left pieces of my armor at home.

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