Thanking God for the Bad

Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. The key word is “ALL”. That includes, the good, the bad, and the ugly. Sometimes its hard to see past all the bad when you do not know the reason behind it. Continue reading


Can I Find peace

I do not even know how to start this out. The morning I lost my child, I got a message from me in my Facebook messages. It clearly wasn’t really me, but for a few months, I have been popping up with new pages, they have tried to add some of my friends, some of my friends have searched for me and found additional pages, etc. It has been a lot on me, since extra pages of me, is partly what cost me, love. Secondly, my reaction to it I am sure. Even thinking about it is making my stomach turn and my body shakes at this moment. Continue reading

Content in my Singleness

Is there such a thing; To be content with being alone, to be content with being enough for yourself, and do not feel the need to have anyone else? There is! One day, I want something beautiful again, I want something right. I do want to be married again, I want to be a wife, I want to have someone, whom I can comfort, and be there for, and hopefully, they can be there for me as well! (That’s always the plan, right? LOL) I am stubborn and hardheaded and it took me a lot to be at peace and HAPPY with where I am. Continue reading


I feel like I should just not pray, I should not speak, I should not do anything when it comes to him. Like nothing. The more I pray, the more I pray for his heart… In every way possible. It is like torture. The more I pray, the more I want to pray for him. The more I pray for myself. The more I pray for his kids, his family. The more important he becomes to me. Continue reading


Romans 5:3 And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience; 5:4 And patience, experience; and experience, hope:

After all I have been through, you would think I would be a master of patience. I have been through more than most people would go through in 3 lifetimes, and I still want what I want when I want it. For me I think it is more of, uncertainty that bothers me, and the waiting for the outcome of whatever. Not so much me wanting things to happen right now, but me wanting to know right now. I have waited so long for things that will never happen, or things that never did happen. Continue reading