The Spirit of Fear

Outside of always having stage fright as far back as I can remember, this is the stage in my life where I allowed the foothold for the devil to creep in.  I got married and pregnant all about the same time in my life, and as that happened, my husband at the time, was not so excited for it.  We made the choice to get pregnant together, but honestly, I didn’t believe it would really be possible, and he knew that as well.  I had a high-risk pregnancy with my first daughter, 2 miscarriages, and a doctor tell me that being able to carry a child to full term, just wouldn’t be in the cards for me.  Having my beautiful baby girl, now 2 years later, you can see just how wrong he was.  I married a ladies man.  Which was hard to believe, because he is the nerdy type, always gaming, but he did ride motorcycles. Continue reading

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~FEAR~ 2 Timothy 1:7 For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind

I am waking up to reality lately, and it is a lot to take in.  When you have a gift, and you don’t use it, let’s just say, God has a sense of humor.  It’s not always funny either, and most of the time, we do not get the joke until after it’s all said and done.  I have had a gift of writing, really, since I can remember.  I always did great in elementary school, I would win ribbons for having the best story, or best poem, but I didn’t really pursue it until I was in the 6th grade at age 11. It was after my father told me I was too stupid to become the president, only book writers and lawyers become presidents.  I was 10 at that time, and instead of giving in and believing what he said, I told myself I will write books and become a lawyer, even though it really wasn’t my dream to become president, I just wanted to prove him wrong.  (It took understanding and forgiveness, but I love my father to this day.) Continue reading

Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

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Trust, Honesty, Respect

There are three qualities to really take note of in an individual, Loyalty, Respect, and Honesty, and that is someone you can truly trust. There is this song, “If you want love” and some of the lyrics are;

If you want love, you gon’ have to go through the pain
If you want love, you gon’ have to learn how to change
If you want trust, you gon’ have to give some away

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Seek first To Understand, You may Never be Understood.

This is something I learned many years ago. (I still struggle at times) Sometimes it kind of sucks because you wind up living in a world where you feel no one understand you. But you can step outside the box and understand everything, and everyone as if you are watching a movie you already know the ending to. This does not mean you are perfect, or that you approve or agree with other people’s views or life choices, but that you can see where they are coming from. You also can see the stupid things you do, know when you are wrong, when you will lose, and you have to be humble enough to know when to give in. The funny thing is that I am a very complex person. Proverbs 14:29 typically is talking about two polar opposite people, but that can be me in one, and that is not always a good thing.  Continue reading

Power of Prayer…

Prayer is extremely important in your relationship with Jesus. 1 John 5:14-15 Tells us that whatever we pray for in God’s will, he will hear us, and if he hears us, then he will answer. I have been praying for my husband to be better for our daughter. He is. He is still the same he was for me. However, cannot stand being the bad guy, and in general he isn’t. I mean he isn’t so mean, he has been mean and said mean things, but he’s not in general. We can co-parent just fine, we get along great, and his daughter adores the mess outta him. He just wants there to either be no bad guy, or 2 bad guys. He cannot be to blame for this, he cannot be the one to blame that his daughter has to have 2 households. That is really a shame. Not even that she ever really has to know the reason. Continue reading