Outside of always having stage fright as far back as I can remember, this is the stage in my life where I allowed the foothold for the devil to creep in. I got married and pregnant all about the same time in my life, and as that happened, my husband at the time, was not so excited for it. We made the choice to get pregnant together, but honestly, I didn’t believe it would really be possible, and he knew that as well. I had a high-risk pregnancy with my first daughter, 2 miscarriages, and a doctor tell me that being able to carry a child to full term, just wouldn’t be in the cards for me. Having my beautiful baby girl, now 2 years later, you can see just how wrong he was. I married a ladies man. Which was hard to believe, because he is the nerdy type, always gaming, but he did ride motorcycles. Continue reading
I am waking up to reality lately, and it is a lot to take in. When you have a gift, and you don’t use it, let’s just say, God has a sense of humor. It’s not always funny either, and most of the time, we do not get the joke until after it’s all said and done. I have had a gift of writing, really, since I can remember. I always did great in elementary school, I would win ribbons for having the best story, or best poem, but I didn’t really pursue it until I was in the 6th grade at age 11. It was after my father told me I was too stupid to become the president, only book writers and lawyers become presidents. I was 10 at that time, and instead of giving in and believing what he said, I told myself I will write books and become a lawyer, even though it really wasn’t my dream to become president, I just wanted to prove him wrong. (It took understanding and forgiveness, but I love my father to this day.) Continue reading
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
They say love can make you do some crazy things! If you act crazy, but ONLY for a moment, and no more than VERY few and FAR between, we are only human, and depending on what else, then As long as you check yourself, then who am I to disagree? But if a moment has passed, and you still crazy??? Then, no. That is not love. 1 Corinthians 13 is nicknamed the love chapter for a reason. I can tell you that, lying, yelling, keying a car, hitting, reminding someone they’re not worth a title (or the lack thereof), cheating, busting the windows out someones car, allowing your partner to feel insecure (especially men, save that for another day) stealing, and I think you can get where I am going with this list. Anything that would belong in this theme, is not an action of love. I will say, often times, we learn love from our parents or someone who doesn’t know love, and therefore, we do not know love. Because of that, we will show love in the wrong way. Continue reading
The things I am going through right now. I finally get over my husband, and he talks to me about working it out. Who does that? I had to accept that he had just moved on, didn’t want me any more, and was better off without me. No lie I prayed that he wasnt having a great time without me, one of those, reap what you sow, kind of situations. While I was still wishing the best for him and praying for his heart for our daughter. For 2 years I have felt like the Israelites in Judges 10:8. Vexed an opressed, shattered and crushed. Not just broken, but shattered into thousands of pieces. My entire marriage was like this. While he was out doing him, I was at home with the children as depression sets in, trying to take care of home, going to work, making things happen for them, not being a team, and not taking care of me. I waiver liie the waves in the ocean in my relationship with Christ. And this morning, it hit me, Ephesians 6:12 For we wrestle not against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. I know this already, I have written about it, I have tried to make him see it, but I left pieces of my armor at home.
Temptation sneaks up upon us like a Marine sneaking up the stream. You don’t realize it’s there, until shots are fired and it’s too late. Sometimes it is partially planned, but in reality, you think you can hold back. You know you can, but when it is in your face, you no longer can resist the feeling that is in your most inner parts. Genesis 3 is a lot to swallow! It is the first time you see temptation, and you see how emotion and confusion allows for temptation to creep in. Also, how easy it is to twist the word of God. Whats crazy is, if she would have eaten the other tree, she would have had everlasting life (Genesis 3:22), knowing good and evil, AND living forever. If you see the history of mankind, that just doesn’t seem like a great mix, LOL. I guess it seems you can only have one or the other. Which makes sense as to why Jesus had to die on the cross for our sins, and only he can separate, our flesh from our sins, and give us everlasting life. Continue reading
I always say, “You can’t have a rainbow, without the rain.” That is probably, one of my favorite sayings, because you cannot truly appreciate the good without the bad. Suicide is a first world problem, and it MOSTLY happens with those who seem to have it all, and they are still missing something, or they lost it all. (There are other cases, when people have to face demons all alone, and it seems as though you have no one who can possibly understand you, ect.) Some of the richest people you will ever meet are those with nothing, and some of the most beautiful artwork, comes from those who have experienced the most pain. But at the end of the day, your fear of the storm, is determined by your faith in Jesus. Continue reading